Winds of Change

I have been absent for a very long time on this forum. There are many reasons, but I'm hoping enough time has passed and effort paid to resolve them. If not, I guess I'll find out in a hurry. But I digress. I've had some major changes in the last little while. I have a new job, which is fantastic, and I have made new friends and have maintained old friendships. This (maintaining) is a pretty big accomplishment for me. My time is at a premium. I'm not kidding, I have to schedule time to do laundry. So it's unfortunate but hopefully understandable when I drift off from people who I no longer see on a regular basis. At least that's what I've been telling myself. It's crap by the way. I changed jobs for the immeasurable better, but I still care about the people I left behind so to speak. I've found my schedule hasn't changed... it's still ridiculously busy, but I have put in a bigger effort. Considering that effort can be summed up in a few text messages and phone calls here and there, it shows just how pitiful my non efforts were before. Do you realize when my sister lived in Ontario, I would go a couple YEARS at a time not talking to her. No fight, no issues, no problems. I was just "Busy". Now that she is in Calgary, she hears from me every couple of months... which is how often my other sister hears from me so at least it's fair now. I know, I'm a big jerk. I have gone to my nephew's baseball games, something I would not have made time for in the past. "sorry I'm working" I can't even count how many times my family has heard that out of me. It was true, but the rest of the sentence was "and that's my priority". And that's all it comes down to. My priorities. Don't get me wrong. I am perfectly happy with my life style, and I am busy working, which is a choice I continue to make. And no I'm not making a resolution to be more soft and fuzzy, I'm just looking at the reality and being honest about it. I'm looking at my priorities and I am seeing where I do have some time after all to include things I used to weasel out of. I guess my desire to jump ship on certain things has diminished. So here is the ugly truth. I have had some really good things happening in my life lately. I feel way more positive and am much happier. I'm also seeing thing as an opportunity instead of an obligation. Amazing what perspective can do for you. But that's it. When I have something useful to say, we'll chat again.